Hey i've changed my blog to http://funnyhappysad.blogspot.com/
Sunday, April 30, 2006
its already been almost a week .. everyting seems fine now ... except for those moments alone ... i've already tried but it seems to fail .. i guess it would take a loong time .. but i do not have much left .. already 1 week i lost to tis ... not eating playin studying .. just crying tinking and reflecting ... moments where i'll just break down fer no reason .. shows i've been watchin suddenly makes mi feel numb .. places i go to .. reminds mi of those times .. how i wish i could just 4get those tings. .. y cant i have an accident and lose my memory .. many questions are left answered- had any been at all .. these 3 mths have been my happiest in the 2 years .. now .. i'm left wif more agony and pain .. sometimes i realli regret my decisions .. noeing i should not have gone into it .. my heart just gave in ... the moments walkin .. holding and huggin yar .. it seems to linger in my mind everytime i see u .. already im been tired .. breaking down .. tinking .. but all comes natually to mi. . my frens whu were dere to hellp mi up .. i realli thank you guys .. whuever u guys are .. u noe it yrselfs .. i noe i can pick up frm tis .. im realli trying very hard .. so pls no lose patience on mi.. all the bothering ... i'll try to stay cheerful ... happy tink i need a few more weeks .. but it will still be part in my haert .. letting go is never easy .. it wasnt even easy in the first place.. so here i am ... i'll try my best .. not tinkin of her ... i'll concnetrate on bowling .. i will win the competiton .. for myself .. for my frens .. and for her .. i'll show u tt i can still live without u .. for the last time ... i love tis gal called samantha :) - :(